
Today I meditated twice by myself and once with a group. When I first started doing the group meditation, at the beginning of this year - I honestly did not think I would like it. I thought that trying to meditate with other people in my space would be difficult but it hasn't been. In fact, it has been quite the opposite. There's a kinship - like we are all in the same meadow perhaps just looking for different flowers? Hmmm...
Like I said, I have meditated three time today! This mornings was not very enlightening - not like the days where I come out and have some marvelous new phrase or anything. It was difficult to focus. Nicotine and the hundreds of additives they put in cigarettes has really done a number on my system. Whew...one minute I'm freezing, the next I'm rollin with a mood, then I'm ok, then I'm hot...it's like jeez! Withdrawals are not fun. Kind of reminds me of a few trips I went on in my twenties...but I'm digressing aren't I? The break of dawn brought me out of my mediation and I didn't feel quite there...so I tried again mid morning. I did a Kriya and then mediated. Lagan came along but he seems to always want me to jump in the water..subconscious journey! I resisted and didn't stay in the meditation but 15 minutes...arrgghh.
Then I meditated for a third time at noon. It was in a group setting. We focused on a centering prayer, a candle, and the sound of the Ocean from a wave machine. Layering...I liked that. Open the channel! It truly reminds me of where I've come from. Two years ago, I was so addicted to substances I couldn't stop self medicating long enough to reach out...I was so busy grasping for what I wanted...meditation saved me from self destructing back then. Today, it gives me the ability to help others! Wow, and for that I am ever so grateful!
Peace and blessings!