Sharing Meditation

Today I meditated twice by myself and once with a group. When I first started doing the group meditation, at the beginning of this year - I honestly did not think I would like it. I thought that trying to meditate with other people in my space would be difficult but it hasn't been. In fact, it has been quite the opposite. There's a kinship - like we are all in the same meadow perhaps just looking for different flowers? Hmmm...

Like I said, I have meditated three time today! This mornings was not very enlightening - not like the days where I come out and have some marvelous new phrase or anything. It was difficult to focus. Nicotine and the hundreds of additives they put in cigarettes has really done a number on my system. Whew...one minute I'm freezing, the next I'm rollin with a mood, then I'm ok, then I'm hot...it's like jeez! Withdrawals are not fun. Kind of reminds me of a few trips I went on in my twenties...but I'm digressing aren't I? The break of dawn brought me out of my mediation and I didn't feel quite there...so I tried again mid morning. I did a Kriya and then mediated. Lagan came along but he seems to always want me to jump in the water..subconscious journey! I resisted and didn't stay in the meditation but 15 minutes...arrgghh.

Then I meditated for a third time at noon. It was in a group setting. We focused on a centering prayer, a candle, and the sound of the Ocean from a wave machine. Layering...I liked that. Open the channel! It truly reminds me of where I've come from. Two years ago, I was so addicted to substances I couldn't stop self medicating long enough to reach out...I was so busy grasping for what I wanted...meditation saved me from self destructing back then. Today, it gives me the ability to help others! Wow, and for that I am ever so grateful!

Peace and blessings!

The Path I'm on is Character Development

Character Development
"the inherent complex of attributes that determine a persons moral and ethical actions and reactions; "education has for its object the formation of character"- Herbert Spencer

As I meditated this morning, an image rose into my conscious awareness. I was walking on a path and there were pots of gold along my way. My first inclination was to take off running towards the rainbow that so beautifully splayed itself across the distant horizon. I was reminded by my much wiser higher self that I had earlier called upon for guidance, that the path was the journey. The journey today is about Character development. Of course, this information caused me great excitement because lately all I've longed to do is write and create a piece of literature worthy of publishing. But the character development wasn't intended for the development of a novel. Instead, it was intended for my own personal development. Too often in my life I put the cart before the horse. I don't know if you've ever done that but what happens is I loose control and go tumbling down a rocky embankment of my life and hit a bottom. With torn clothing and ripped skin I claw my way back onto my path and look down with bewilderment at the broken wagon and lame horse.

Today, and just for today, I choose to ride in the wagon. Perhaps, even drive down this path of character development. But I will spend more time walking the path and investigating these shining pots of gold intended to enlighten my own character. I will ask questions, listen and learn about my own moral stengths and weaknesses. I will work to keep my focus directly in front of myself, being ever so mindful that my head and feet are in the same place.