One who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; one who does not ask a question remains a fool forever. (Chinese Proverb)
Today I got back on track with my meditation. The weekend and my general malaise is due to simple seasonal allergies. Some days I can ignore them and at other times, I ignore me. You laugh...how can someone ignore themselves? It isn't very difficult for me to ignore my feelings - I just throw myself into some mind numbing action and before I realize it, I am sicker than when I began! I did not ignore myself today.
This morning I awakened with the sun, relaxed in the hot tub, prayed, did a warm up, a Kriya for Subtle Knowing and then meditated. Nothing unusual happened during prayer - no questions were asked of me. My Kriya seemed successful in that I accomplished it to a point of personal satisfaction. My meditation? Ahhh...
Fabulous! The energy ran through my body as my Kundalini energy awakened. I walked in the valley with Lagan and he stayed with me as I scaled yesterdays cliff. I consciously was aware of the symbolism of reaching higher peaks but I didn't fathom that the subconscious work could come in so handy! The most amazing thing happened as I reached from one knot in the rope to the other, I wanted to give up! What's the point? It's just a meditative journey - right?
I did not give up it is not in my nature to give up. I reached the peak and sat on the side of the mountain admiring the vast expanse of the valley of my soul. Green verdant lands with water flowing, flowers peeking up through fertile soil and a path with many baskets of virtues to be explored. One question after another popped into my monkey mind. Literally a hundred questions arose from my subconscious and floated out into the valley below. As my spirit lightened, Lagan said it was time
for me to soar. Say What? But remember how scared I was to dive in the water and when I did nothing happened. That was building trust. So with his encouragement - I pushed off the side of the mountain.
At first I thought this is silly, I can't fly - surely I'll just land in the valley, broken and scarred. But, that's not what happened. I did a free fall for several stories and then I realized that I had wings! I flapped my wings - caught air and soared through the sky! Just as I did...I heard birds outside my meditation room window! It was pure heaven! In the valley of my soul I have found freedom!
Peace and blessings!
