deleted lyrics from: SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW!
When all the world is a hopeless jumble
And the raindrops tumble all around,
Heaven opens a magic lane
When all the clouds darken up the skyway,
There's a rainbow highway to be found
Leading from your window pane
To a place behind the sun,
Just a step beyond the rain
Hope? Perhaps. I wasn't sure during my meditation this morning and I'm not sure now - exactly what the song "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" has to do with my life. I do recall at the first of January there was a rainbow in the far distance in the Valley of My Soul! Today, the rainbow was closer. In the bible a rainbow symbolizes a promise or faithfulness. In Greek Mythology it was a path between heaven and earth. I like that. I'm on a path between heaven and earth! It's called spirituality!
The color of my day is violet. Violet is your 7th chakra or crown chakra. It symbolizes pure consciousness or inner wisdom. Pure consciousness is defined as a silent state of inner wakefulness with no object of thought or perception.
This morning as I meditated my thoughts and feelings settled into a state of quietness. In this state, thought and memory vanished leaving only a perfectly simple wakefulness. It was bliss. This state is typically referred to as a mystical state! I've been here before. This is as close to Nirvana as I may ever get!
Albert Einstein says:
The most beautiful and most profound experience is the sensation of the mystical. It is the sower of all true science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead. To know that what is impenetrable to us really exists, manifesting itself as the highest wisdom and the most radiant beauty which our dull faculties can comprehend only in their primitive forms - this knowledge, this feeling is at the center of true religiousness.
Have you ever felt as though you were very close to a powerful, spiritual force that seemed to lift you out of yourself? I have on many occasions. The most recent being this morning. I was aware that I was part of this big vast universe. I was being held by a loving force as I breathed in and out the breath of my life in sync with the oceans tide. There has been a force with me my whole life. There's another fellowship that I belong to and we talk a lot about this power. In there we all ran from it because we wanted to do our will. We didn't like the plans the universe had for us so we butted our heads against the wall until we cried UNCLE! To date, I've surrendered twice now! With mini surrenders coming whenever I have enough pain induced by my ego!
Meditation is helping me to slow down. I am listening in a way that I never listened before. Today in the car I heard a whisper. The whisperer said, "a brain is like the cars engine, consciousness is the driver, but GOD is the vehicle!" hmmm Interesting! I also heard a repeat whisper...on the road at the same place I've heard it before! Makes you wonder about time/space phenomenon doesn't it?
So what was the biggest difference in my morning meditation? I had a true desire to reach a new level! For so many years I meditated just to stay sane, now I meditate to grow spiritually. In the past thirty days I can assure you one thing has definetly changed due to my meditative journey and that is the ability to truly listen! Not the kind of listening where I hear the words people are saying but the kind of listening where I hear where they are coming from - their heads or their hearts! In my minds eye I am seeing colors more vividly. The other thing that has happened is my intuition is kicking back in. I thought I had lost it because I self medicated for a few years while dealing with menopause and a mid life crisis! It's true freedom today to know that I have choices in life and I'm choosing good ones!!!
Lagan said I have to walk the path by myself for awhile. I'm afraid it's time for a new guide. When I was younger they changed a lot. And just when I was getting attached to them. It's be okay. I trust the process today!
Peace and blessings!
