This picture struck me as interesting. It's a rare sight and even more rare to be captured on film. Today I am struggling. Before I saw this picture I would have said I was angry at the world and ready to lash out at anything in my path. Then I saw this leopard, who by its very nature is a ferocious predator - yet, something inside of it stopped it from devouring this little mouse as it sat and dined on bloody red meat.
Am I judging my insides by the outsides of others? Certainly there's some of that going on. Am I running on pure instinct? I'm not sure. I'm restless, irritable and discontent which is the way I spend most of my life. But even a ferocious leopard gives a frail little mouse a break sometimes. How many breaks have you had? I have certainly had my fair share. But today I want more.
Today I want a sign from the heavens as to what my path and purpose is. I want it yesterday in writing visible for me to see. Wishful thinking? We'll see.
I did meditate this morning but I can't remember what happened. I tried to focus on my third eye. I tried not to invent anything. I tried to assume that this Lagan bit is some sick joke my psyche is playing on me. For now I am at the end of my rope. I give up. I want to go to bed and curl up with the covers over my head. But I can't, I have repsonsiblities.
Maybe it's a matter of perspective. Maybe, if I change seats things will change. I think not. The perspective will have to be an internal shift. I'm so whiney - please forgive me...today is a struggle at best.
