Life's A Dance by: John Michael Montgomery
"...Life's a dance you learn as you go
Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow
Don't worry about what you don't know
Life's a dance you learn as you go
Life's a dance you learn as you go
Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow
Don't worry about what you don't know
Life's a dance you learn as you go..."
When I was younger I went through this phase, very brief phase, of wanting to be a dancer. I lost interest when I realized that others were innately better at it than I was. Today, I understand, that there will always be others who are better at things I enjoy doing, but as long as I'm learning and applying myself...all will be well. The word I'm fumbling around for here is humility. Humility in the sense of knowing when it's my turn to lead, and when it's my turn to follow. The lyrics "don't worry about what you don't know" represent to me that intuitive inspiration which I am learning to follow!
Today did not start off as usual. First of all I slept much too late, ate and read, then convinced myself that forty five days into this blogging journey was not the time to abandon my commitment to you my followers. My plate is full today, but I have gotten out one of those compartmentalized trays and separated each thing...and will with rhythm and grace synchronized to the best of my ability...tackle each compartment with full attention. A better expression of this would be- to be present in the moment. So having said that, I did enter into my prayer and meditation time if only for the sake of accountability!
I suited up and showed up, as the God of my understanding was patiently waiting. It was a struggle to prayer with my thoughts splayed out like streamers tied on to a high powered fan but I prayed and centered myself in the channel. I expressed gratitude, acknowledged love and understanding, and asked to be clear today so that others could see the light that burns within me. After a very satisfying series of warm up exercises which included ego eradication, I did of course - my favorite Kriya, for subtle knowing beyond the obvious!!! Hey what can I say, it works!
Feeling pleased with my new found ability of "stick to it ness", I settled in for my meditative journey. Apparently, ones spirit guide is versed in many facets of human existence! I called for Lagan too early in my meditation and was instructed that when I had slowed down and relaxed I could meet him on the path. Once I got there, after crossing several blocks, you remember the alligator under the bridge (that's a chakra block), I arrived on my path...smiling and content to learn. Lagan said, "life's a dance - sometimes you lead little one and sometimes you must know intuitively that it is your turn to follow." I think I explained that above...and I feel as though I intuitively "get it". My quest today was selfish. Although I would have loved a beautiful basket filled with a virtue or two...hey, or three...I asked instead for guidance with a task I am undertaking this evening.
You may not know this about me, but as a young girl, I loved to be on stage. It wasn't necessary about ego then - it was about expressing my voice as I understood it. I wanted to sing, yea and dance...I spent many years cultivating this talent, only to eventually quit and you guessed it - because there were other who were better than I was. Yes, I too now see the pattern. "If I'm not the best, my ego is too fragile for second place..so I quit!" But today, I choose not to quit. As I have a sneaking suspicion that there is a calling for me. It won't make me the best...but it will be that thing that allows me to combine all my talents into leadership. Part of this journey for several years, has resonated with the phrase "find your voice". Several years ago, I studied voice again - hoping to find my voice...remember I found my voice deep inside of me while meditating inthe mountains. But along the way, I acquired a hobby - acting. Tonight I have a class, the first in 2 years and I have some fear and trepidation...acting was a way for me to explore this "finding your voice" so now there's just residual effort of getting that snow ball rolling ! I asked Lagan to help me rehearse lines. Viola...he helped me pace myself and find the rythym! Wow he really is amazing!
As we strolled the path rehearsing...he suggested that instead of taking the really tough route up the mountain...you know...the knotted rope that I insist on climbing - he said there were steps...arrggh! So we climbed the steps. Twelve of them to be exact! We sat perched on the mountain top peering over the valley of my soul. Flashing in my minds eye were the fruits of all my previous endeavors to find that thing that resonates so clearly with synchronicity and knowing that I can not doubt my path. I'm not sure but I think it has something to do with Meditation. Lately I have entertained this vision of being a Meditation Instructor...it's practical, spritual and rings with truth and grace! Today, Lagan said in that...I will find my true voice!
Peace and blessings...and much love and gratitude for your support...always!!
