Clarity of purpose,
Clarity of understanding.
--Zen saying
Life has a way of propelling itself - doesn't it? A reminder to me about just how little power I have. My job today was to "suit up and show up" for my morning meditation! And I did! All of me, body, mind and soul.
I enjoyed a day filled with amazing peace and bliss. The ability to sustain those internal setting absolutely leaves me, almost, without words! Words and which ones to use seem to be the biggest challenge with my meditative journey. To reach into my psyche and extract the magnificent experiences and reproduce them here in this blog...never quite seems to do justice to the journey. But I will attempt to articulate to you today's experience.
After a brief prayer and warm up, I did a short kriya for pelvic balance (only 5 minutes). I went into my easy pose with hands in gian mudra and practiced breathing for what seemed like an eternity (ok, maybe 2 minutes?). While focusing consciously on my breathing I began to scan my body (internally) for signs of stress. Once I got past this stage of relaxation, the physical sensations began to come - right foot asleep, left eye lid itching, tickle on the back of my neck...you get the picture. Instead of coming out of meditation I acknowledged those physical sensations and kept on focusing on my breath looking gently into my third eye.
In my minds eye I saw the path and wanted to run find Lagan. He appeared by the lake and said I could work on a character defect that was bothering me. We dove into the lake and what I saw was that jealousy is base emotion not unique to human beings, animals also possess it. It is a trait that was not addressed in my family of origin. To overcome the negative feelings that this emotion cause when it arises I am to counter it with love and kindness. This will require being the moment - recognizing the emotion and conscious choice to change it. I felt the most amazing sensation as we were coming out of the water. It, this feeling, ran through my body like I'd walked through tinkling electrons.
As Lagan and I walked up from the bank by the lake he asked if I remembered my purpose. "To give lights to the souls in darkness." He said, that light can also be a metaphor for love. Down the path were six baskets - presents for me? Virtues I have been working on...honesty, faith, willingness, humility, perseverance and dedication! Goody - I love the baskets and what they contain! Lagan said, "it's about what we bring to offer!" The baskets aren't presents for me, they are part of my being - they are what I have to offer. I must have really done something good because I don't remember getting to go into the water, get virtues on the path, and get to go on the mountain all in the same mediation period. But we did.
On the mountain top is was so very peaceful. I floated to a place of pure air. A council was there and they said, that I am gaining wisdom and knowledge - the aura would carry through the day. I heard a gong in the background and turned to see where it was coming from. Not only did I see the gong - I saw the sound waves rippling around it! All the while floating just above the mountain top. Then, I saw a goblet - clear ....ah, clarity. A place of clarity. I don't know how I got here...but I'd love to visit again tomorrow!
"We are the World
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true, we'll make a better day
Just you and me..." Lionel Richie and Michael Jackson
