"Let life unfold like a flower." Lagan
Day 5 of my new year meditation journey. Whew! First of all, let me note - I did not start off this year with a new years resolution of daily meditation and blogging. It has happened by chance. On the first day of this new year I began a usual day of simple prayer and meditation that brought me some very vivid imagery. Instead of just dismissing the images and wise words that were coming to my conscious mind I decided to try and write them down. Knowing that I can share this experience with others has compelled me to "stick to it". There will be no promises made of an intended outcome, no expectations for a resolution but I will let you know of my progress.
Today I began my day with the same habits of yesterday! I say that because I have a morning routine consisting of old habits of early morning cigarettes and coffee while relaxing in the hot tub with a new addition of 16 ounces of water consumption. Cigarettes and coffee before meditation? EEEwww.... If I had a new years resolution it would definitely be "STOP SMOKING". I have smoked on and off for as long as I can remember. It has been so long that I don't remember when or why I began. That being said, I strongly desire the wherewithal to cease and desist this extremely detrimental habit. So, today even before my prayers I did a four minute meditation to break addiction. Chantix might be an option in the future but for now I would like to avoid adding any more chemicals to my system and will try this meditation for twenty one days. That is supposed to be how long it takes to break a bad habit. We'll see how it goes.
After my stop smoking meditation I prayed. To say I'm praying to any one in particular would be a fallacy. I often invite God, Jesus, Buddha or Mother Earth into my heart as I pray but no one in particular has dibs on my heart at this point in time. I was raised Christian - not to worry my mother says - I was baptized at age 8 and she believes it stuck! As For the others I call upon...it's a long complicated story for another day. So back to prayer, kriya and meditation.
I completed the same kriya for subtle knowing as I have done for the past five days. When your subtle body is strong, you are calm and masterful. This particular kriya intrigues me as it enhances knowing beyond the obvious. For so much of my life I discounted my intuition now I am eager to pay attention to the tiny whisper that seem to float along on the air. This leads me to my favorite meditation - Focus and Sweetness. Neither of these virtues have stayed in the fore front of my mind for extended periods of time. I am a dreamer. I live in my head and in my fantasies but truly am a creature of experiences. Opposition? You bet!
Okay, now I am up to what went on during my meditation. It was a struggle to say the least. My spouse awakened just as I was beginning! Since it's crucial to keep your self grounded and aware of your surroundings I often scan the house for signs of life. It doesn't generally disturb me that he's awake but today he turned on several lamps....arrrgghhh. New energy infusing itself into my dark meditation room under the door and through the small slits in the door facing. I thought about getting up and turning the lights off but decided it better to practice discipline. (I once read that a monk meditated daily in time square) Okay, let me remind you this discipline issue is very foreign. So, I really tried to focus on my breathing and posture - sitting in easy pose with four fingers of my right hand feeling the pulse on my left wrist repeating the mantra Sat Nam (truth manifested). What I wanted was to run and find the creature from the previous days. A friend suggested yesterday that I ask the creature his name.
About 7 minutes into my meditation as I looked into the space where my third eye resides the creature appeared. I immediately asked him if he could tell me his name. He said, "Lagan". Interesting that he always enters from the right side of this land inside of me. The valley of my soul perhaps. We were standing side by side in a valley of muted colors. Much like the landscape around me now. Barren low lying trees, flat land with dry sprigs of grass, a gray sky, a sandy dirt path and a feeling of compete openness. My desire was to run wildly towards the next basket of virtues. But when I heard the soothing sound of his voice I became still inside. The kind of stillness that brings with it the image of a drop of water falling slowly from the sky and landing in a pool of water it trickles out from a tiny circle until the entire body of water has the slightest circularrim spriraling out to its edges or boundaries. He said, "let life unfold like a flower." And yep, I immediately extracted myself from my center, opened my eyes, brought myself to consciousness and heard the song "Evergreen".
Thus my assumption is that today's virtue is to incorporate patience and love into my daily disciplines.
