Anne Murray - You Needed Me
I cried a tear
You wiped it dry
I was confused
You cleared my mind
I sold my soul
You bought it back for me
And held me up and gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me.
Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers - I Won't Back Down
(I won't back down...)
Hey baby, there ain't no easy way out
(I won't back down)
hey I won't back down
(and I won't back down)
hey baby, there ain't no easy way out
(and I won't back down)
hey I will stand my ground
(and I won't back down)
and I won't back down
(I won't back down)
No I won't back down...
It seems as though I am getting more questions than answers from this meditative journey. I'm okay with that. Just for a recap - I started this blog 24 days ago at the beginning of the new year. On New Years Day I had a very interesting meditation and wanted to share it so I blogged it here. It's turned into a fun and exciting journey - the valley of my soul. In the process I have quit smoking-thanks be to the universe and I'm blogging my journey here- every day!!! Fabulous journey!
Today, the two songs that I've listed above popped into my head as I meditated. Interesting they are from a feminine and masculine perspective - old school - "she cried a tear- he won't back down". Oddly enough, as I sat in the hot tub before meditation I pondered the rain from a male, female perspective! But I can't say for the certain the songs were anything but burps from my psyche.
The not smoking is going okay but as you see the above photo is of dendrites. That's one of the images that came to me during meditation. I think I mentioned in a previous blog that this withdrawal feels like somethings being rewired in my brain. Today I specifically say nerves and synapses in my minds eye and the word dendrites popped into my head. The dendrites are receivers for the neurons firing and mine are popping off way too many right now - this is the number cause of nicotine relapse! ARRRGGHHH. I'm going to make it one more day!
Something funny that happened in my mediation was my mind was so jumpy with this misfire going on and rapid breathing, hot and cold, lack of focus - you name it. So, I got the bright idea to become the monkey. Wow that would be fun - right? Yeah, I was the monkey and climbed the Bodhi Tree and looked around at the beautiful Valley. It's tree and the channel looked so small from above, and then kerplunk- I fell out of the tree and into the water. Oh yes, I did! At first I felt sort of offended. But I scanned my body to see if I was hurt, and I wasn't! So in the lake I realized I was trying to go further into my meditation but resisted! And although I didn't want to examine anything as far as my shadows go - today, when in social situations I was very aware that I was projecting my fears and securities onto others - where I used to just think others were mean or that they didn't like me because of this or that reason - now I'm okay with me enough to see what reality truly is. It's a great journey.
Thank you for walking this path with me...
Until tomorrow,
peace and blessing
